Lonelyyyy, I am so lonelyyy…*sings*
You should be very grateful that singing in text doesn’t affect your ears 🙂 Although playing that back in ‘text to voice’ mode is quite amusing 🙂
Hrmmm I seem to emote more when I’m exhausted 🙂 😛 😮 :S. Interesting. Anyway, onwards…
As I was saying, writing is the loneliest job in the world. Well, maybe that’s ‘pre-published’ writing. I know, you can go to writer’s festivals, go to book clubs and join your local writer’s club. But when you’re doing that you’re not writing.
When you talk about your story to a friend, they either show a lot of interest adding their own spin on your carefully considered and nurture plot lines *ick*, show medium interest (head nodding, ahhing, asking questions) and then as soon as you take a breath they change the subject, or they show no interest and look around the room and sigh aggressively (sighing aggressively is when a person sighs in your face).
It doesn’t make you want to ‘share’ with anyone. If you’re a fantasy fiction writer, and you’re explaining your next plot involving a telepathic, telekinetic, teleporting time traveller, people just give you a forced, somewhat anguished, expression while they’re secretly contemplating how they’re going to get you to a psychiatric specialist.
Unless you’re J. K Rowling or George R. R. Martin — then it’s okay to write about fantastical creatures.
Or they laugh at you and tell you to get a real job (you have my deepest sympathies if this has happened to you).
It does make one begin to like the solitude that writing provides.
In order to write you need to lock yourself in a room. Or at least yell at those around you to be quiet so you can concentrate (I suggest bribery, not yelling). There are days and days of just writing and more writing. You don’t socialise (except on FB or Twitter — I know you’re sneaking in happy time. Stop being happy!), you don’t exercise, you don’t shower, right? You’re basically a house-broken yeti with obsessive-compulsive-disorder.
Or maybe you’re one of those people who gets up at the same time everyday, go for a 30min run. Takes a shower. Self-grooms. Has yoghurt and fruit and green tea with no sugar and plots the coming day (if this is you, why are you reading my self-loathing blog? Also, I loathe you.).
Maybe that’s why so many writer’s protagonists are introverts. Because in order for someone to sit down and actually write a novel that takes months/years of writing, editing, re-writing, you just have to be okay with silence/solitude and loneliness.
I wouldn’t trade it for anything. I love writing. I love exploring characters minds and made-up worlds. And hopefully, if I’m very lucky, one day a handful of people will read my creation and will appreciate the result of all that solitude.
Writing: Being alone in order to communicate.