Okay, ready for a whinge-fest?
While I’ve finished a great short story and had my novel off to beta readers to read, some of which I’ve had no contact from since sending them my manuscript *sigh*, I’ve hit a slump. I just can’t concentrate lately. I keep switching from one story to the other waiting for something to engage me. So, today I started writing an unrelated novel.
I’m a bit scared actually, I want to do this 10 – 15 hours a week, and I do, but I want to be disciplined. And I just don’t like the writing I produce when I am not ‘feeling’ a book. Maybe I just put too much emphasis on ‘feeling’. So, I’ve locked in two books to be edited. One in December, one in January. The one in December is my Adenine story that I finished a while back. It still needs another edit.
I wonder on some level if I’m not being too hard on myself. I’ve only been writing for three years and I hardly wrote at all last year as I was finishing my honours degree. So really, I’m a rookie. Maybe I’m expecting too much from this first book and that’s why I am afraid to start on the second one. Or maybe I’ve found that the second book is so complicated that there’s just no way I’ll have it finished by the end of January. Regardless, I have deadlines. And they’re really scary ones also.
I’ve been working on some short stories that I’m really liking. I even started on a novel in first person about Klawdia, one of my main characters in Adenine (she has a whole fascinating back-story). I love exploring characters and I think lately I’m just bored a lot. When I’m bored, I don’t want mundane activities like going over manuscripts that I’ve already read a hundred times. I want something new. Something fresh. Something engaging that will wrap me up in another world and make me excited to write again.
So now, I think I’ll just bite the bullet and get into my novel editing. Once that’s done, I’ll have another go at the second story in the series. I don’t know why I’m not feeling it. I think part of me doesn’t feel able to write this story the way it needs to be written. I’m watching myself write thinking ‘this narrative is boring/unclear/indistinct.’ When you have a clear interesting voice in the narrative, it’s so much more engaging to write and read. So why all of a sudden has my main protagonist become boring to me?
You know what I think it is? I think the second novel has so many variables that I’m having trouble getting them all right in my head. Anyway, any ideas would be appreciated! 🙂